Hello my friends. How have you been? I hope life has been treating you well. If not, I hope you are enduring your trials well. A lot of times, that’s the tough part.
Life has been interesting for me. I know I mentioned in a previous post last year about me going off my ADD medicine. This has made life quite challenging. As a matter of fact, turns out quitting cold turkey is not the best way to do it. I gained weight which put me into a depression…I don’t usually need help in that department. It happens naturally. So, since last May I have found it challenging just to do every day tasks. It sucks. Thus me not blogging as much. Or doing much of anything extracurricular. I began a different medication in December that is not a stimulant. It helps to some extent, but it’s still not the same. I exercise, including running my 5th half marathon ever on New Years Day. I honestly can’t imagine how I would be doing without exercise.
I haven’t mentioned on here about my oldest Daughter serving a full time mission for our church. She’s been gone a year now. I have missed her greatly despite how proud and happy I am for her choice to serve. With her gone I am here in the home with my 2 youngest kids. My middle child, my Son, is finishing up his Junior year in high school, while my youngest Daughter is finishing her seventh grade year. Life is certainly demanding with teenagers in the home. Not only that, the world revolves around them, their rooms are constantly a nightmare. It’s definitely a thankless job being a full time family manager. To be quite blunt, I’m tired of it.
I got in a lot of trouble last night with my Son. I was getting ready for bed and next thing I know I see the angry face emoticon on my phone screen from him. I go into the living room, where he is, and ask him why he sent that. Come to find out, his friend, who is a girl, began sending him photos of him she found on my Instagram feed. “Why did you follow her? I can’t believe you did that!” he says in a loud voice. First of all, I hardly have very many photos of him period. He doesn’t like for me to take his picture. Yet, as a mom, I don’t want him to look back at my photos and see only photos of his sisters and think I didn’t love him. Anyway, so he began to critique his younger self and say how awful he looked and he can’t believe I haven’t deleted those photos. Oh my goodness, I can’t win for losing. For real! I mentioned one day to my son about something he wrote on his twitter account and now he has blocked me.
I pretty much do everything wrong according to my teenagers and to them I know absolutely nothing. It’s a little difficult being surrounded by people like this all the time. I have set aside half my life to raise my children, to be there for them. And now, they don’t want to have anything to do with me. It’s a little heart wrenching to say the least.
I’m at a crossroads in my life. I’m about to start a new season. I’ve decided to go back to college. It’s time to upgrade my associates degree to a bachelors degree. I need and want to be around like minded people. It’s time to have a career outside the home. I’ve been blessed to not have to work while my kids were young (although I’ve doubted that on many days.) I remember my own childhood and would have liked to have had my mom or dad around more. Yet, they did what they had to do to raise our family. But because of that, and because my husband’s salary provided enough for me to stay home, I chose to do that. I have always had the best interest of my kids in mind. Doesn’t every parent want more for their children than what they had?
I’ve been juggling in my mind what I would like to do. I know I want a trade or a career. The majority of the jobs I’ve held over my lifetime have been in sales of some kind. I’m tired of that. I want to do something creative. I got online and decided to do this career assessment to see what insight it might provide. My youngest saw me doing the assessment and asked why I was doing it. Once I told her I was going to go back to college and start a career outside the home, she flipped out. My 12 year old who is a full on teenager already was really upset. She thinks this means I will no longer be her mom. Oh my goodness…sigh…again I can’t win for losing.
We shall see what will happen. I’ll keep you posted.
Until next time,
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Young Living’s Fitness Oil.
So in between taking the kids to their various camps, conferences and our vacation…I made a new friend this summer. She and her family moved here from a major city in the west. I’ve been trying to keep her from going stir crazy in this small little town of ours. She’s been going through Target withdrawals. {been there. done that.} I remember her calling me and asking me if there was a craft store here. Oh how I wish! I shared with her how I buy my crafting supplies. We have spent a lot of fun time together already. I realized while putting this little collage together of iPhone photos, we have done a LOT of swimming together. {which is why I’m always in my swim suit in the photos.} She brings her littles over to swim in our pool. The first time they came over her 2 boys wouldn’t even get in the pool. They played around the pool. The second time they came over they stood on the steps of the pool. Now, with their swim vests securely fastened, they swim around and do great! It’s been wonderful to see their progress and the huge grins on their faces. Fortunately, her sweet baby girl adores the water. I’m pretty sure she will be swimming in no time! I enjoy seeing my kids take her little ones under their wing and act as big sisters and brothers to them. We have enjoyed having friends in our home again. It’s been such a long time since we’ve had close friends. If you’ve read my blog for a while, you might have seen me whine about not having good friends here. So if you were one of my readers who has been praying for me, you’re prayers have been answered. And I thank you so much for doing so. Friends definitely bring JOY and make life happier.
It’s just me…with shorter hair. Yep, I finally got up the nerve to try the pixie cut. This is plenty short and don’t plan to go shorter. But, I love it! If you had as thick hair as I do you would too. I’m grateful for people telling me I have the perfect face for short hair instead of exclaiming, “what did you do to your hair!?” lol 😉
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