Something I Don’t Want to Forget

Last night I was so tired and ready to go to sleep myself when I tucked in my little girl. We believe in early bedtimes, kids need lots of sleep & parents need alone time. Sometimes I will lay next to her and she will fall asleep much faster. I was very willing to just lay next to her and fall asleep. These nights when I lay next to her are very special. If I am too preoccupied with things I need to get done I will want her to fall asleep quickly. But many times this is a chance for her to talk to me openly. She, of course, is stalling going to sleep.

I was drifting off to sleep when she asked me, “Mom, how long will you be with me?” I was caught off guard and half asleep. I answered, “what do you mean?” She says, “How long will you be my mom?” I answered quickly without much thought, “I don’t know.” My sleepy thought processes are thinking of this earth life. None of us know when our time here is done.

As a side note, unfortunately, there are mothers who don’t get as much time with their kids before they are called back to their Maker. Lately, I have heard way too many stories of mothers with young children dying of all sorts of cancer. These are women who are my age. This has me thanking my Heavenly Father for each day I have with my children. Each day is a gift, whether I acknowledge it or not. I don’t know about every woman/mom, but for me, I would like to live to see my children get married and have grandchildren.

Back to the story, my little girl gave me a tight squeeze around my neck and said, “I want to be with you forever!”

I love you,” I said and she repeated in her sweet little voice, as she always does when I tell her this, “I love you too.” But then she added something new, “so does brother and sister.” This caught me by surprise. I realized she said this because she has heard me tell her older brother and sister I wish they would tell me they love me after I tell them I love them (They don’t usually). “Why do you think they don’t tell me anymore,” I ask her. “I think it’s just because they are bigger,” her tiny voice answers. “Promise me you will tell me you love me when you are bigger, ” I humbly ask. She says, “I will mommy.”

Dreaming of Vampires

Another funny thing my youngest told me this week. She has nightmares quite a bit. 🙁 Unfortunately this has been going on for about 2 years or longer. Almost every other night she ends up in our bed because she is scared from a dream. Every once in a while we will ask her what she is dreaming of. Her most common replies are bugs & monsters. There is a new subject of her dreams…yes, you guessed it vampires! I asked her the other day what she was dreaming about and she said vampires. I said, “I wonder why you are dreaming of them?” A exclaims, “because Mom, I hear you talk about those books to Sissy!”

They tell it like it is, don’t they!

Since I am on the subject of vampires…

I set my DVR to record Ellen today. Stephenie Meyer was to appear on the show. I sat down to watch it tonight and was disappointed. Ellen only asked Stephenie about 3 or 4 questions and that was it! It was maybe only about 3 minutes long! Oh well, I am excited about her exposure. I am surprised when I wear my Twilight T-shirt and someone asks me what Twilight is. I just naturally think that everyone knows what Twilight is now. I am happy to share my enthusiasm with them. One lady told me I was a good sales person! I don’t have to be a good salesperson to share something I love with someone. Although, I know it is indeed easier to sell something I love.


I was surprised to find out how many visitors I had here on my blog yesterday. Either one of two things happened:

  1. You thought, “That slide show was cool!”
  2. You thought, “Go see this hilarious girl’s slide show on her blog.”

Yeah, yeah…go ahead and make fun of my 80’s hair, make up and clothing!

For whatever reason you visited…welcome.


P.S.: In celebration of my 20 year High School Reunion this weekend, I will be posting a new Playlist with some of my favorite 80’s music. Can you guess what I will be playing? Or do you have any requests?

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1998 – Picture

Okay, so I spent way too much time looking for the pictures of my 10 year High School Reunion; only to realize that my Mom has them. Well, I found this picture of my Mom & I at my step-brother’s wedding which was very close to the time the reunion was held. So this is what I looked like in September of 1998. My next post will show you pictures of what I looked like my Senior year of high school…1988. There is a huge difference! That doesn’t surprise me, though. I love to have different hair styles, if you know me, you KNOW that to be true! By the way, I was 8 and a half months pregnant with my second child at the time. Now, ten years later since this picture was taken, about the only difference besides the hair would be the dreaded wrinkles! Ugh!!!! I guess we have to age sometime!

20 Year High School Reunion

This weekend I will be traveling back to my “home town” to celebrate 20 years since High School graduation…Class of ’88. WOW! Doesn’t that make me feel old! I have been out of school now longer than I was in school!

I enjoyed going to my 10 year high school reunion; even though I was 8 months pregnant with my son. I was huge! I will have to search for the pictures and post them here. That will be a good laugh!

I am excited to see everyone again.
Go Colts!