Depression is raw.
Sometimes, I think to myself, “I should be used to this feeling,” not that it would change how it feels…how horrible it is.
Depression seems to slow time down while Joy speeds it up. Oh how I wish it was the opposite.
When I am experiencing a bout of depression I feel helpless.
I feel stopped, plugged up, held up like there is no progression.
Like there is nothing I can do BUT feel…and it’s sad.
Chemical depression is not always due to outside influences. It just happens, no matter what circumstances I’m in.
I have so much to be grateful for. God has blessed me immensely, yet I feel sad…then the shame wheel starts rolling. Boy does that make it worse! It’s honestly better to not think. Ha! For me that is impossible. My mind continuously thinks.
The only thing that brings me hope is knowing this will pass. My history shows that it won’t be here forever and I am so counting on that. I wish it would hurry and be done.
I wish it would hurry and be done.
We would not know joy without sorrow,